The start of the new year is always a fickle time for me. I have such mixed emotions at the thought of it. I love Christmastime and all of the magic that seems to surround the holiday season, and for that reason alone, I hate to see December come to a close. But, every winter, and each one has only gone by faster than the last just as my dad promised it would when I was a kid, the calendar inevitably hits a dead-end and a blank page stares me in the face; a reminder to grab a new one the next time I find myself lost in the vortex that is Target. On the flip side, I always get a little giddy at the prospect of actually making the changes that I keep a mental log of in my head. The ones I share with my oldest daughter when I take her to and from school in the morning and we talk about the day ahead. The ones I really, really want to stick with. So, here are three resolutions (yes, only three, this way I am not being completely unrealistic about what can be accomplished) that I hope to see through, at least until 2018 rolls around.
1. SPEND MORE TIME WITH MY KIDS. This probably seems impossible because as a stay-at-home-mom I am literally with them every second of every day (and night), but what I mean is that I want to spend my time with them differently. So much of the day is consumed with pulling shirts and leggings over and through tiny arms, and chubby feet. And the shoes. So much time is spent tying their shoes. Or matching them for that matter. And I want to really be there with them when they wake up instead of rushing past them to wrangle up jackets and lunch boxes, snacks, and mermaids. Because now mermaids are a must in the car, too. Along with each of their favorite blankets. And stuffed animals. Can you see why my car is an avalanche of toys? And that is just the very beginning of the day. There is always laundry and dinner and errands that have to be run. And the books that I keep meaning to read with the girls when I put them to bed still sit out on their nightstand each night. I have placed them there though, with the intention of reading them, but it doesn’t always get done. Somehow it gets dark well before the mounting to-do-list gets smaller and I have already added more to attempt to get done tomorrow. We do spend a lot of afternoons at the park and the soccer fields and summer days at the pool, lots of roaming around Barnes and Noble. But a huge chunk of that is spent chasing after toddlers, keeping them off of stools that are too high for them and dragging them out of the mud, literally, and breaking up fights and sometimes just keeping them alive. So, I spend all of this time with them, but want more of them. I want those baby hugs to last a while longer and all of us in one space long enough to finish listening to the details of their days in full without getting pulled in another direction. After all, they are only little for so long.
2. TAKE MORE TIME FOR MYSELF. Okay, so this seems completely contradictory to the first resolution where I want to spend more real time with my kids, I know, but this one is so, so important. The healthiest version of myself is the one where I get a decent amount of “me time.” It allows me to recharge and refresh so that I can be a better mom and wife and sister and friend. Whether it’s a car ride alone, with only my thoughts and my choice of music, or a solo trip to Starbucks, or better yet, an exercise class or paddle match, I need this time. And it doesn’t always happen, and it’s not always easy to make happen, but it is honestly necessary. I can tell when there has been a lack of “me time” and see how it affects my stress level, my attitude and the way I interact with my girls. Whatever it is that makes your soul happy, do it. It will be just as good for those around you as it is for you.
3. BE MORE ORGANIZED. I tend to start the new year, or even a new season, with a closet overhaul or the much needed transformation of a room, but shortly after, the tidy drawers and baskets and piles come unraveled. My hope is to continue to stay organized all year long, so that each pocket of my home remains neat at all (or, let’s be honest, most) times. And with regular maintenance this can so happen! I would love for this resolution to carry over to other aspects of my life that need constant organization, like my finances, and my kids’ important papers and even the blog, so that I don’t feel overwhelmed and underprepared.
Here’s to making realistic resolutions and sticking to them! Or trying to at all costs. And to all of those goals you are looking to achieve, all of those dreams you would like to see come to fruition, go for it. You have a brand new year ahead of you starting now.